Entry 1: What I thought was a hardship was my Epiphany.
"Our greatest glory is not in never falling but rising every time we fall." -Confucius

Ha ha!

This week has been off the charts! Somehow I managed to get through my college finals, found some pretty slick anime to watch and manga to read, among some other things. What really does it for me is that I'll be at my two-year community college for the next 3-4 years. Its all due to some missing documents holding my math level so I'll have to take Basic Math to Math L3 all over again. Now while I was pissed at first (seriously I nearly flew off the damn handle/deep end, like @&%$!#!!&%#$! angry) it eventually hit me:

Why am I so mad?

Now for the few that know me (even vaguely) its times like this where I'll go on some sort of rant...though luckily I've had a an epiphany of sorts. While I'll have to repeat everything from the start it's not as bad as I thought. So while I'm here might as well go with the flow and clear the air of some things huh. So before I press the restart button on my life I want people to know some things about me even if their some random folks cruising the net. I asked myself, why was I so mad? It wasn't the thought of having to go through all the work, or watching my friends move forward while I was still at the starting line. It wasn't anything like that, I was so pissed cause...I held myself back. Despite all my talk about how people should never give up, I gave up before the start. (Wow, stereotypical right? Please laugh, I did when it hit me.)

So all in all. I'm gonna be clearing the air here and in the next few entries. Why? Cause its about time I did something.

What I thought was a hardship, having to repeat everything from the start is probably the first time I can move forward on my own two feet. Its probably like a second chance with a semi-clean slate (some things just stick). So while its disappointing and a little sad that I'll have to watch my friends from the starting line, that my little bro will be moving forward and farther then from where I'm at now, that I'll have to watch the girl I love leave...well I'll leave that for the next entry ha ha!

While its all that. I feel a little glad that things like this happen to me. I've always been told by friends and family that I walk around with a serious demeanor and expression. That I always complain about the bad stuff that happen, and that I take things to seriously. I for one thought that those things were just how my life was supposed to be; one difficulty after another. So right now I want to say a few things.

For starters I can't wait for next semester to start. I'm ready for the long haul fight now. Next off for those that know me (or at least know what I look like) I can't help having a serious look on my face; it's just how I look geeze. And as for complain about all the bad that's happened to me let me say this now: While I sound like I'm complaining and not having a good time I'm really enjoying my life. Sure everything I've experienced has been chalked full of tough times, and I complained about them but if it weren't for those tough and hard times how would I know what the good memories were. I sound like I'm complaining but deep down, I'm having a blast. That serious look on my face, the polite and composed demeanor, and that rigidness is all show. I'm having a good time. Besides whats life without hardships, its the difficulties that make it all worth while and interesting.

So...I'm at the starting line, I got something like a second chance in hand and I'm going to run with it. I've taken a few steps back, but have moved forward so much. Where's the goal? I dunno, can't see it. But when I get to it, that light at the end of the tunnel I'm gonna grab it with both hands.

Alright. Its game start. Lets do this!

Ready...Set...GO!